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Asian Studies BA Degree? Sayounara!

Hey Maniacs!!!
I am super excited to tell you guys that above all odds, I made
it! I finished 3 years of university!
I went earlier to hand out my last 2 big ass papers, and that is
it! 3 years of a lot of mixed emotions have come to an end.

It was a little nostalgic walking around university and thinking
about how I was when I first started my studies. Gosh, I was so god
damn different. I was trying so hard to conform, to let go of the
“crazy” image I had about myself, and I was very excited to start
a new thing. I even remember trying to hide most of my tattoos and
get rid of a few piercings. Heck, I was “studying” normal people
on the post office, on the streets, and tried to imitate them, what
they wore, how they acted, their tiny necklaces and ballet flats…

From the beginning I wasn’t going there to get a degree, I was
all about learning Japanese, and maybe at the end of uni get a
scholarship to japan, but that was the end of my hopes, as I was just
healing from a long battle with eating disorders and severe
depression. I couldn’t imagine I would become what I am today!
Never would I imagine I’d have a blog, a youtube channel,
friends who love me and I love them, and such a different attitude
towards life.

At the beginning of my second year, I got so distracted
by the need to create, I was really absorbed in my videos and I
didn’t want to go on with my studies, but I was too scared to quit
cause I feared I might fall back into severe depression and kill
myself.
I had the same dilemma as I started the third year… I even made an “I quit University” video back then.
 Looking back, I don’t know if I should have quit or not, but
considering the last to years of school were absolute hell, I am very
proud of myself for sticking to the end.

           

To tell you the truth I wasn’t sure I was going to make it until
a few days ago, where I had the majority of my paper written. I
didn’t know whether I’d have the ability to force myself doing
something I hate for so long, and it did take its toll on me.

Since last October, I became more depressed than I was in the last
few years, and stopped uploading videos frequently. Heck, I probably
uploaded 4 videos this last year. I just didn’t have it in me. Part
of it was due to when I was in Berlin last year. I was so busy with
living life rather than filming them, that a part of vlogging seemed
pathetic to me. I also started thinking, why would people wanna see
my videos? I am cute, funny and enjoyable, but I don’t really give
an added value to give nor do I have a niche that people can relate to.
Besides, I was always a bit embarrassed to vlog in public, and
talking to a camera in your own room does seem a bit weird when you’re
not doing it frequently. There is also the language barrier. Obviously
English is not my native language, and even though I can write OK, I
pronounce myself much better in Hebrew than in English, and its pretty
difficult for me to vlog in English fluently.

I do have some of these thought in my head now, when I actually do
plan on going back to vlogging and blogging regularly, I am pretty
spooked out and I’m not really sure what should I do. Especially now
that I have so many new interests I’d be happy to talk about and that
I am leaving Israel to go travel Thailand.

BTW, brace yourselves, cause I have a ONE WAY TICKET to Thailand
on the 24th of November!!!

I am even more spooked out about this whole thing. I am actually
leaving everything I know to go and explorer a new place and a
totally new lifestyle. Remember that on my Midburn post I told you
guys I want to create a life for myself that I wouldn’t be
depressed to come back to after a festival? So this is me following
that plan.

I sold a heck of a lot of the shit I owned, but I’m gonna use these
next 2 months to sell all the rest and get ready and say goodbye to
the people I love, and get back to a bit of vlogging and I would like
to write a raw till 4 recipe ebook, or at least take the pictures as
I still have a good camera and computer before getting rid of them.

I can’t wait to start backpacking with only a few essentials and
start exploring the real things in life, not what a bunch of bozos
write in their academic books and not working for a bunch of bozos
who get all the profit from the work that I do, and live in the race
of purchasing shit I don’t need.

Well, a pretty exciting period is in front of me, I’ll try to
keep you guys posted 🙂

Peace
Henya

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On Being Sick

Let’s be honest, nobody likes to be sick. Your nose is running, your’e nausious, stomach hurts, throat sore, head pounding and what not.
I myself as a major hypochonder, germophobic and generaly scared of being sick, HATE those times when i start feeling low and even worse, coming down with something.

But I have to admit it, being sick is an amazing time. First of all, it always happens when your pushing yourself too hard, or having a mental breakdown, or in a point in life you just can’t go on as you are. That’s what so amazing about the human body. He gives a fuck about you, and when he doesn’t like the way he’s being treated, he shuts down and demands your attention. 

Right now I’m recovering from an evil cold I got last week, and getting sick was a huge wake up call for me.
Not that I didn’t know I was feeling like shit, but I was doing everything I could to get away from it. Clubbing almost everyday, not sleeping, not eating as good, and just running away from any alone time I might have. And to be frank? Getting that cold was a true blessing.
Finally I got some quality time with myself, I got to rest more than I could handle, and it really made an impact on me. I feel so much better now, having dealt with myself and seing that the monster is not so bad. I even made some new resolutions for myself such as taking better care of myself.. sleeping more, eating better, start what Ive been wanting to do forever now – Parkour! And of course, letting go of the past, try to get over my fears and move on to greater things.

Definitely happy I got this cold and was forced to slow down a bit.
What are your thoughts about being sick? Do you also use that time for new resolutions?
Let me know in the comments.
Love,
Henya
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Recording A New Song In The Big City!

Maniacs!
Good morning wherever you are:)
In a try to write more in my blog I’m writing this post from the bus!
on my phone..hope I don’t get nauseous..
So a lot has been going on lately music-wise.
Yesterday I was working on recording a new song I wrote with the producer who recorded my vegan style, Assaf Halevi, and tomorrow we’re filming a music video for the new summer hit song “Star Away”, by Denis Kravtsov and me:)
it’s all very exciting and I can’t wait to get it going..
So stay posted via my facebook, twitter and my youtube channels 🙂
See ya!
LOVE
Henya

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My First HOLLYWOOD MOVIE!!!

Hello Maniacs!

Guess what? Guess what!!!
I was on a movie set today!
I took part in a documentary that the Hollywood director Christine Yoo is making about Korea!
We were a group of Kpop fans from different nationalities and we talked about how we got to know Korean culture and pop culture.
To be honest it wasn’t really easy for me to be in a group of people and to just barge in and talk. I got a little anxious, but in the end I’m proud of myself for talking and saying what’s on my mind, even if I weren’t as articulate as I can be.
All in all it was a great experience 🙂

This is what I wore

Christine Yoo is a Korean – American director who directed the movie The Wedding Palace. Her movie is not out yet and already won many prizes!
She’s so awesome!
It’s always cool to be on a movie set but this time it was really professionalism and I was fascinated watching her in action 🙂

Here’s the trailer for her movie 🙂

Here’s me with Christine

 BTW I opend and account on KEEK!
For those of you who dont know keek, it’s an app that lets you upload videos up to 36 seconds, it’s like the Twitter of Youtube 🙂
To check out my Keek and don’t forget to follow and subscribe here http://www.keek.com/HenyaMania
Here’s my last video 🙂

See you guys next time!!
LOVE
Henya