From the beginning I wasn’t going there to get a degree, I was
all about learning Japanese, and maybe at the end of uni get a
scholarship to japan, but that was the end of my hopes, as I was just
healing from a long battle with eating disorders and severe
depression. I couldn’t imagine I would become what I am today!
Never would I imagine I’d have a blog, a youtube channel,
friends who love me and I love them, and such a different attitude
At the beginning of my second year, I got so distracted
by the need to create, I was really absorbed in my videos and I
didn’t want to go on with my studies, but I was too scared to quit
cause I feared I might fall back into severe depression and kill
I had the same dilemma as I started the third year… I even made an “I quit University” video back then.
Looking back, I don’t know if I should have quit or not, but
considering the last to years of school were absolute hell, I am very
proud of myself for sticking to the end.
I do have some of these thought in my head now, when I actually do
plan on going back to vlogging and blogging regularly, I am pretty
spooked out and I’m not really sure what should I do. Especially now
that I have so many new interests I’d be happy to talk about and that
I am leaving Israel to go travel Thailand.
BTW, brace yourselves, cause I have a ONE WAY TICKET to Thailand
on the 24th of November!!!
I am even more spooked out about this whole thing. I am actually
leaving everything I know to go and explorer a new place and a
totally new lifestyle. Remember that on my Midburn post I told you
guys I want to create a life for myself that I wouldn’t be
depressed to come back to after a festival? So this is me following
I sold a heck of a lot of the shit I owned, but I’m gonna use these
next 2 months to sell all the rest and get ready and say goodbye to
the people I love, and get back to a bit of vlogging and I would like
to write a raw till 4 recipe ebook, or at least take the pictures as
I still have a good camera and computer before getting rid of them.
I can’t wait to start backpacking with only a few essentials and
start exploring the real things in life, not what a bunch of bozos
write in their academic books and not working for a bunch of bozos
who get all the profit from the work that I do, and live in the race
of purchasing shit I don’t need.
Well, a pretty exciting period is in front of me, I’ll try to
keep you guys posted 🙂
Hello Little Maniacs!
Sorry I haven’t been here for a while, and for uploading only awesome videos and not super awesome one’s.
I have been extremely busy with my personal life and trying to get back on track in my studies.
How’s it going your’e asking?? Frankly not so well, but hey! at least I’m going to class everyday!
My last super awesome video I uploaded was a Draw My Life video I decided on making after I saw all this Youtubers making one. It’s seemed like a great way to express yourself and more personal stuff that one might not feel comfy enough talking straight to camera about.
Ever since uploading this video I feel so much relief, so much stress taken off. I have nothing to be ashamed of myself. on the contrary, I’m proud of myself and the place I stand in now, and I’m even thinking about making a video talking about how to help yourself and encourage yourself to get better and get help, Cause I’ve been in so many horrible places in life and I wished I had any positive figure in life I could relate to.
Once again I want to use this platform to thank you all, I’m really grateful to you guys, as a lot of where I am now is thanks to you! Watching my videos, my blogs, liking, sharing and commenting, it really does mean the world for me.
I love you♥
Here’s a preview to a makeup tutorial I’m editing for next week 🙂
How do you like this look??
See you soon!