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On Being Sick

Let’s be honest, nobody likes to be sick. Your nose is running, your’e nausious, stomach hurts, throat sore, head pounding and what not.
I myself as a major hypochonder, germophobic and generaly scared of being sick, HATE those times when i start feeling low and even worse, coming down with something.

But I have to admit it, being sick is an amazing time. First of all, it always happens when your pushing yourself too hard, or having a mental breakdown, or in a point in life you just can’t go on as you are. That’s what so amazing about the human body. He gives a fuck about you, and when he doesn’t like the way he’s being treated, he shuts down and demands your attention. 

Right now I’m recovering from an evil cold I got last week, and getting sick was a huge wake up call for me.
Not that I didn’t know I was feeling like shit, but I was doing everything I could to get away from it. Clubbing almost everyday, not sleeping, not eating as good, and just running away from any alone time I might have. And to be frank? Getting that cold was a true blessing.
Finally I got some quality time with myself, I got to rest more than I could handle, and it really made an impact on me. I feel so much better now, having dealt with myself and seing that the monster is not so bad. I even made some new resolutions for myself such as taking better care of myself.. sleeping more, eating better, start what Ive been wanting to do forever now – Parkour! And of course, letting go of the past, try to get over my fears and move on to greater things.

Definitely happy I got this cold and was forced to slow down a bit.
What are your thoughts about being sick? Do you also use that time for new resolutions?
Let me know in the comments.
Love,
Henya
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Happy Independence Day Israel!

Well hello there my little Maniacs 🙂

Long time no see eh?
I was busy, busy, busy, but today is the Israel Independence Day and I partied so hard last night, so  I can sit back, relax, and finally write a post.
So what I actually wanna say today is that about a month ago, I came down with a stomach virus. those of you who knows me personally would know I am Emetophobic. Which means I have a phobia of vomiting and everything related to that. I have been suffering from the age of 9, for 15 years, from anxiety attacks.
So when I was sick last month, I was so devastated and helpless and I just couldn’t understand what did I do to deserve such great suffering.
Now this must sound crazy to you but having a fear of vomiting is not your usual phobia where you can avoid, let’s say snakes, or crowded places and staying home. This fear is the fear from yourself, your body, of losing control. and there’s no escaping from yourself, and there’s no relief. vomiting can occur at any time, any place, to you, or someone else, you can catch a virus literally everywhere. It’s a game you can’t win.
It’s like hell. And when you’re sick it virtually impossible to handle it.
So when I was sick last month, I reached to a conclusion.
I decided I was not gonna let this fear take it’s control over me anymore.
Or any other fears that limits me and my actions through life. and i have so many of those too.

This decision wasn’t and isn’t an easy one to follow, but I can say that the first step I took was try to step out of my comfort zone as much as possible. I even had the idea to document some of those moments and make a video about it once in a while, so let me know if you’ll be interested in seeing that.

So yesterday there was this independence party I thought about going to, but everything I ever did on independence day was shitty, so I had no expectations. I came with 2 friends, the party was outdoor, and it was OK  at about 3 A.M the music got real good but my friends wanted to go. I wanted to stay and dance till the sunrise. I met there a friend who studied Japanese with me and we hanged out and danced until about 5 and then he wanted to get back home.

So there I was with this dilemma. I had never been to a party alone, I feel weird even if a friend at a party goes to the bathroom. It’s not just that, I used to die out of hunger when I’m outside and I wouldn’t sit at a cafe or restaurant to eat something by myself.  but I guess a lot of people are like this. So I thought to myself: “Hen, here’s a great opportunity to step out of your comfort zone, try something new, explorer your body’s capacity at dancing for hours on end, and what can possibly be so bad about it? I can go home at any second, no one can harm me, so what the heck?”
And I made up my mind to stay at this nature trance party, not knowing anybody, depending on my own body to warm me by dancing, at least until the sunrise.
And so I did. The first thing I did while alone was socializing, going to other people’s fires and hanging out with them. I can’t believe myself.

The dancing part wasn’t that easy though. I felt awkward from time to time because of my long arms and I had to get them moving too because they were freezing. But I tried hard to ignore my stupid thoughts and just try to connect to the music and let my body go with it [I sound like such a hippie right now :|]. I danced and danced and I didn’t stop and people were like “look at her” “check her our man” and all that, and I thought to myself how I could do this just by being vegan, not needing any alcohol or drugs. maybe just food 🙂
Eventually the sun came up and it started raining so I went home.
I’m so proud of myself for staying alone and stepping out of my comfort zone, and I had a great time!
Dancing like this was so liberating… I have to do this more often! I guess that was my own little independence day 🙂
Now I’m a pile of tired mess. I slept only 6 hours after dancing for 6 hours, and I’m with my laptop in bed, resting and watching wayne’s world 🙂

Happy independence day Israel!
And remember! Killing and enslaving living creatures and burning their flesh is not how you celebrate independence. Here’s to vegan hot-dogs!

Thanks for reading and I’ll see you in my next post!
XOXO
Hen

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April Fools And My Moroccan Vegan Mimuna!

Why hello there my little Maniacs!

So it’s the beggining of April, and that means….APRIL FOOLS!
I just looooove April fools!
This year I uploaded a video to my channel saying, well, just watch it ans see what I said 🙂

I especially filmed myself with my phone, didn’t edit or nothing so that it’ll look more authentic.
A lot of you noticed that it’s a joke, but a whole lot more of you guys wrote to me such great comments and emails that really warmed my heart.
Cause even if it was done as a joke, everything I said there was true. I really am not happy with how things are going, and the mean comments really get to me sometimes.
My channel and works occupy most of my brain capacity everyday and youtubing has become an enormous part of my life and I would like to receive responses that match my efforts.
That’s why I keep my mail connected to my account so I can see every new comment [even if I don’t always comment back] and every time I’m notified I have a new subscriber it really makes my day.
So thank you my little Maniacs for all of your support and love!
Keep on sharing and liking and commenting!

On to the next one 🙂
On April first was also a huge holiday for us Jews that came from Morocco, called Mimuna.
It’s a holiday that marks the end of Passover and it has many traditions.
Basically we have guests at our homes and we make a ton of sweets so we can all have a sweet year, and we make a dish named Mufleta, which is made out of fried dough. It must be the yummiest thing ever on exist on planet earth.
I haven’t been to a Mimuna in so long, so I decided to make one in my own flat and invite some friends, and it was the first time I made Mufleta by myself!

That’s all folks!
What did you do on April Fools? 
Let me know in the comments bellow 🙂
See ya next time
LOVE♥
Hen