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Asian Studies BA Degree? Sayounara!

Hey Maniacs!!!
I am super excited to tell you guys that above all odds, I made
it! I finished 3 years of university!
I went earlier to hand out my last 2 big ass papers, and that is
it! 3 years of a lot of mixed emotions have come to an end.

It was a little nostalgic walking around university and thinking
about how I was when I first started my studies. Gosh, I was so god
damn different. I was trying so hard to conform, to let go of the
“crazy” image I had about myself, and I was very excited to start
a new thing. I even remember trying to hide most of my tattoos and
get rid of a few piercings. Heck, I was “studying” normal people
on the post office, on the streets, and tried to imitate them, what
they wore, how they acted, their tiny necklaces and ballet flats…

From the beginning I wasn’t going there to get a degree, I was
all about learning Japanese, and maybe at the end of uni get a
scholarship to japan, but that was the end of my hopes, as I was just
healing from a long battle with eating disorders and severe
depression. I couldn’t imagine I would become what I am today!
Never would I imagine I’d have a blog, a youtube channel,
friends who love me and I love them, and such a different attitude
towards life.

At the beginning of my second year, I got so distracted
by the need to create, I was really absorbed in my videos and I
didn’t want to go on with my studies, but I was too scared to quit
cause I feared I might fall back into severe depression and kill
myself.
I had the same dilemma as I started the third year… I even made an “I quit University” video back then.
 Looking back, I don’t know if I should have quit or not, but
considering the last to years of school were absolute hell, I am very
proud of myself for sticking to the end.

           

To tell you the truth I wasn’t sure I was going to make it until
a few days ago, where I had the majority of my paper written. I
didn’t know whether I’d have the ability to force myself doing
something I hate for so long, and it did take its toll on me.

Since last October, I became more depressed than I was in the last
few years, and stopped uploading videos frequently. Heck, I probably
uploaded 4 videos this last year. I just didn’t have it in me. Part
of it was due to when I was in Berlin last year. I was so busy with
living life rather than filming them, that a part of vlogging seemed
pathetic to me. I also started thinking, why would people wanna see
my videos? I am cute, funny and enjoyable, but I don’t really give
an added value to give nor do I have a niche that people can relate to.
Besides, I was always a bit embarrassed to vlog in public, and
talking to a camera in your own room does seem a bit weird when you’re
not doing it frequently. There is also the language barrier. Obviously
English is not my native language, and even though I can write OK, I
pronounce myself much better in Hebrew than in English, and its pretty
difficult for me to vlog in English fluently.

I do have some of these thought in my head now, when I actually do
plan on going back to vlogging and blogging regularly, I am pretty
spooked out and I’m not really sure what should I do. Especially now
that I have so many new interests I’d be happy to talk about and that
I am leaving Israel to go travel Thailand.

BTW, brace yourselves, cause I have a ONE WAY TICKET to Thailand
on the 24th of November!!!

I am even more spooked out about this whole thing. I am actually
leaving everything I know to go and explorer a new place and a
totally new lifestyle. Remember that on my Midburn post I told you
guys I want to create a life for myself that I wouldn’t be
depressed to come back to after a festival? So this is me following
that plan.

I sold a heck of a lot of the shit I owned, but I’m gonna use these
next 2 months to sell all the rest and get ready and say goodbye to
the people I love, and get back to a bit of vlogging and I would like
to write a raw till 4 recipe ebook, or at least take the pictures as
I still have a good camera and computer before getting rid of them.

I can’t wait to start backpacking with only a few essentials and
start exploring the real things in life, not what a bunch of bozos
write in their academic books and not working for a bunch of bozos
who get all the profit from the work that I do, and live in the race
of purchasing shit I don’t need.

Well, a pretty exciting period is in front of me, I’ll try to
keep you guys posted 🙂

Peace
Henya

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2 Comments

  • SauerkrautTofuwurst September 30, 2014 at 7:46 pm

    Very nice blog! I've been following your youtube channel for some time and now found this blog, I like! 🙂
    17 months ago I also sold almost everything and started to travel the world with motorbike. One of the best decision ever! I hope you'll have plenty of fun on your travels and enjoy the lighter life! Keep on vlogging and blogging! 😀

    – Skippy

  • tineqwa ratib October 26, 2014 at 1:41 am

    Dont do something you dont like.
    If you wanted to learn japanese, learn japanese then get paid to translate and teach the languages you know.

    What is B.A degree in Asian Studies? If you want to learn about Asia, why not just go to Asia? You'll learn more about Asia than what some university tells you about it(and you wont know if what they told you is true unless you go to asia to find out). What paid job are you going to have where you need to know Asian studies?

    Dont conform. be yourself.

    You promoting veganism gives value and is a nitch vegans can relate to.
    Being funny and enjoyable adds value.
    Dont be embarresed.
    Your english sounds good. Accents arn't a bad thing.
    Don't be spooked out for making videos.
    What you should do is make funny videos and music videos, vegan related. You can make videos of you cooking vegan recipies too. You can do a what i eat in a day video.
    Do videos about being at thailand.

    I hope you figured out how your going to live, survive, and be safe in Thailand.
    I hope you have a happy life. Thanks for being vegan 😀

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